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Two Kinds
Amy Tan
My
mother believed
you could be anything
you wanted to be in America. You
could open a restaurant. You could work
for the government and get good retirement.
You
could
buy
a
house
with
almost
no
money
down.
You
could
become
rich.
You
could become instantly famous.
you can be a prodigy,
too,
told me when I was nine.
Her daughter, she is only best
tricky.
She had come to San Francisco in
1949 after losing everything in China: her mother
and father, her home, her first
husband, and two daughters, twin baby girls. But
she
never looked back with regret.
Things could get better in so many ways.
We didn't immediately pick
the right kind of prodigy. At first my mother
thought
I
could
be
a
Chinese
Shirley
Temple.
We'd
watch
Shirley's
old
movies
on
TV
as
though they were training
films. My mother would
poke my
arm and say,
You
watch.
And
I
would
see
Shirley
tapping
her
feet,
or
singing
a
sailor
song,
or
pursing her lips into a very round O
while saying
mother said, as Shirley's
eyes flooded with tears.
talent for
crying!
me to the beauty training school
in the Mission District and put me in the hands of
a
student who could barely hold the
scissors without shaking. Instead of getting big
fat
curls, I emerged with an uneven
mass of crinkly black fuzz. My mother dragged me
off to the bathroom and tried to wet
down my hair.
she lamented, as if I had
done this on purpose. The instructor of the beauty
training
school had to lop off these
soggy clumps to make my hair even again.
very
popular
these
days
the
instructor
assured
my
mother.
I
now
had
bad
hair
the
length
of a boy's, with curly bangs that hung at a slant
two inches above my eyebrows.
I liked
the haircut, and it made me actually look forward
to my future fame.
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In fact, in
the beginning I was just as excited as my mother,
maybe even more so.
I pictured this
prodigy part of me as many different images, and I
tried each one on
for size. I was a
dainty ballerina girl standing by the curtain,
waiting to hear the music
that would
send me floating on my tiptoes. I was like the
Christ child lifted out of the
straw
manger, crying with holy indignity. I was
Cinderella stepping from her pumpkin
carriage with sparkly cartoon music
filling the air. In all of my imaginings I was
filled
with a sense that I would soon
become perfect: My mother and father would adore
me.
I
would
be
beyond
reproach.
I
would
never
feel
the
need
to
sulk,
or
to
clamor
for
anything. But sometimes the prodigy in
me became impatient.
and get me out of
here, I'm disappearing for good,
be
nothing.
Every night after
dinner my mother and I would sit at the Formica
topped kitchen
table.
She
would
present
new
tests,
taking
her
examples
from
stories
of
amazing
children that she
read in Ripley's Believe It or Not or Good
Housekeeping, Reader's
digest,
or
any
of
a
dozen
other
magazines
she
kept
in
a
pile
in
our
bathroom.
My
mother
got
these
magazines
from
people
whose
houses
she
cleaned.
And
since
she
cleaned
many houses each week, we had a great assortment.
She would look through
them all,
searching for stories about remarkable children.
The first night she brought
out a story
about a three-year-old boy who knew the capitals
of all the states and even
the most of
the European countries. A teacher was quoted as
saying that the little boy
could also
pronounce the names of the foreign cities
correctly.
Finland?
”
my
mother asked me, looking at
the story.
All
I knew was the capital
of
California, because
Sacramento was the name of the street we lived on
in Chinatown.
see if that
might be one way to pronounce Helsinki before
showing me the answer.
The tests got
harder - multiplying numbers in my head, finding
the queen of hearts in
a deck of cards,
trying to stand on my head without using my hands,
predicting the
daily temperatures in
Los Angeles, New York, and London. One night I had
to look at
a page from the Bible for
three minutes and then report everything I could
remember.
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Jehoshaphat
had
riches
and
honor
in
abundance
and...that's
all
I
remember,
Ma,
inside
me
began
to
die.
I
hated
the
tests,
the
raised
hopes
and
failed
expectations.
Before going
to bed that night I looked in the mirror above the
bathroom sink, and I
saw only my face
staring back - and understood that it would always
be this ordinary
face - I began to cry.
Such a sad, ugly girl! I made high - pitched
noises like a crazed
animal, trying to
scratch out the face in the mirror. And then I saw
what seemed to be
the
prodigy
side
of
me
-
a
face
I
had
never
seen
before.
I
looked
at
my
reflection,
blinking
so
that
I
could
see
more
clearly.
The
girl
staring
back
at
me
was
angry,
powerful. She and I
were the same. I had new thoughts, willful
thoughts - or rather,
thoughts
filled
with
lots
of
won'ts.
I
won't
let
her
change
me,
I
promised
myself.
I
won't
be
what
I'm
not.
So
now
when
my
mother
presented
her
tests,
I
performed
listlessly, my
head propped on one arm. I pretended to be bored.
And I was. I got so
bored
that
I
started
counting
the
bellows
of
the
foghorns
out
on
the
bay
while
my
mother drilled me in
other areas. The sound was comforting and reminded
me of the
cow jumping over the moon.
And the next day I played a game with myself,
seeing if
my mother would give up on me
before eight bellows. After a while I usually
counted
only one bellow, maybe two at
most. At last she was beginning to give up hope.
Two
or three months went by without any
mention of my being a prodigy. And then one
day my mother was watching the Ed
Sullivan Show on TV
. The TV was old and
the
sound kept shorting out. Every time
my mother got halfway up from the sofa to adjust
the set, the sound would come back on
and Sullivan would be talking. As soon as she
sat down, Sullivan would go silent
again. She got up - the TV broke into loud piano
music. She sat down - silence. Up and
down, back and forth, quiet and loud. It was
like a stiff, embraceless dance between
her and the TV set. Finally, she stood by the
set with her hand on the sound dial.
She seemed entranced by the music, a frenzied
little piano piece with a mesmerizing
quality, which alternated between quick, playful
passages
and
teasing,
lilting
ones.
kan,
my
mother
said,
calling
me
over
with
hurried hand gestures.
music. It was being pounded out by a
little Chinese girl, about nine years old, with a
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Peter Pan haircut. The girl had the
sauciness of a Shirley Temple. She was proudly
modest, like a proper Chinese Child.
And she also did a fancy sweep of a curtsy, so
that
the
fluffy
skirt
of
her
white
dress
cascaded
to
the
floor
like
petals
of
a
large
carnation. In spite of these warning
signs, I wasn't worried. Our family had no piano
and we couldn't afford to buy one, let
alone reams of sheet music and piano lessons.
So I could be generous in my comments
when my mother badmouthed the little girl
on TV
.
sound.
are
you
picking
on
her
for?
I
said
carelessly.
pretty
good.
Maybe
she's
not
the
best,
but
she's
trying
hard.
I
knew
almost
immediately
that
I
would be
sorry I had said that.
not
trying.
sofa. The little Chinese girl
sat down also, to play an
encore of
Grieg. I remember the song, because
later on I had to learn how to play it.
Three
days
after
watching
the
Ed
Sullivan
Show
my
mother
told
me
what
my
schedule would be for
piano lessons and piano practice. She had talked
to Mr. Chong,
who lived on the first
floor of our apartment building. Mr. Chong was a
retired piano
teacher, and my mother
had traded housecleaning services for weekly
lessons and a
piano for me to practice
on every day, two hours a day, from four until
six.
When my mother told me this, I
felt as though I had been sent to hell. I whined,
and then kicked my foot a little when I
couldn't stand it anymore.
me the way
I am?
I cried.
not
a
genius!
I
can't
play the piano. And
even if
I
could, I wouldn't
go on TV if you paid me a million
dollars!
You think I want you
to be genius? Hnnh! What for! Who ask
you!
heard her mutter in Chinese,
famous now.
always
tapping
his
fingers
to
the
silent
music
of
an
invisible
orchestra.
He
looked
ancient in my eyes.
He had lost most of the h air on the top of his
head, and he wore
thick glasses and had
eyes that always looked tired. But he must have
been younger
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that I though, since he
lived with his mother and was not yet married. I
met Old Lady
Chong once, and that was
enough. She had a peculiar smell, like a baby that
had done
something in its pants, and
her fingers felt like a dead person's, like an old
peach I
once found in the back of the
refrigerator: its skin just slid off the flesh
when I picked
it up. I soon found out
why Old Chong had retired from teaching piano. He
was deaf.
would start to
conduct his frantic silent sonatas. Our lessons
went like this. He would
open the book
and point to different things, explaining, their
purpose:
Bass! No sharps or flats! So
this is C major! Listen now and play after
me!
he would play the C scale a few
times, a simple cord, and then, as if inspired by
an old
unreachable
itch,
he
would
gradually
add
more
notes
and
running
trills
and
a
pounding
bass
until
the music was
really something quite grand.
I would play
after
him,
the
simple
scale,
the
simple
chord,
and
then
just
play
some
nonsense
that
sounded
like
a
rat
running
up
and
down
on
top
of
garage
cans.
Old
Chong
would
smile and applaud and
say Very good! Bt now you must learn to keep
time!
how
I
discovered
that
Old
Chong's
eyes
were
too
slow
to
keep
up
with
the
wrong
notes
I
was
playing.
He
went
through
the
motions
in
half
time.
To
help
me
keep
rhythm,
he stood behind me and pushed down on my right
shoulder for every beat. He
balanced
pennies
on
top
of
my
wrists
so
that
I
would
keep
them
still
as
I
slowly
played scales and
arpeggios. He had me curve my hand around an apple
and keep that
shame when playing
chords. He marched stiffly to show me how to make
each finger
dance
up
and
down,
staccato,
like
an
obedient
little
soldier.
He
taught
me
all
these
things, and that was
how I also learned I could be lazy and get away
with mistakes,
lots of mistakes. If I
hit the wrong notes because I hadn't practiced
enough, I never
corrected myself, I
just kept playing in rhythm. And Old Chong kept
conducting his
own private reverie. So
maybe I never really gave myself a fair chance. I
did pick up
the basics pretty quickly,
and I might have become a good pianist at the
young age.
But I was so determined not
to try, not to be anybody different, and I learned
to play
only the most ear-splitting
preludes, the most discordant hymns. Over the next
year I
practiced like this, dutifully
in my own way. And then one day I heard my mother
and
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